Solivagant

I stumbled across a 'new to me' word yesterday and it's quickly becoming a favorite.

solivagant

& among it's definitions
 'solitary'
and
'wandering alone' immediately jumped out to greet me
& I thought,
Hey Universe ! How perfect is THAT ??!?
On the very day I made it back to my beloved walking trail, I discovered a pleasant way to describe exactly how I feel.

solivagant

& nothing personal people but, the peace and remoteness of an empty park on a bundled up, brisk day is absolutely heavenly.

The silence.
The still.
The patience and calm and waiting.

WoW

It is truly breathtaking, wonderfully spiritual
& shhh

shhhhhh

I will recognize myself in that perfect hush.
All the time, every time.

Oh, Winter.
Oh, Solivagant.
This solitary wanderer is so very happy we've found what we've found.

:)

I Am My Feelings

Finding Mine

It began many, many moons ago
& I really can't tell you why.
I guess I was lost somewhere in the glee.
So, yes !!
I felt the need to share.
Hey, why not ?
It's your birthday !
& you know what ??
I'm going to hand you some joy.

You see, I'm pretty darn certain I was a singer in another lifetime
& pardon me if you've heard this before but, it's true.
I know it's true
& I don't just mean singer,
I mean true blue, you've never, ever heard a such a voice.
I am absolutely positive people would come from miles and miles to be in the midst of my lovely melodies.

ahhhhh,
it 'twas quite the wonderful experience, if I dare say so myself.

But, the keyword here is ANOTHER
& although this go-round brings it's own quirky, miscellaneous talents, carrying a tune is definitely not one of them.

rats.

Which brings me back to my Happy Birthday birthday songs.
All I ask is that the receiver of my solo not answer their phone as I prefer to leave a voicemail
& to those of you who have experienced my lyrical, la la laaaaaas ?
You gotta admit, that long note at the end gets better and better every year !

right ?
am I right ??!?? 

Anyways.
Somewhere down this road, I have often felt as if I am missing something.

Something.

Some. Thing.
But what ?

WHAT ????

"Your pitch.", he said.

Excuse me ?

"Your pitch. You just need to find your pitch."

& the heavens opened up with a glorious THAT'S IT !!
& this is the moment I decided I must place my Happy Birthday birthday songs on pause.
Yes.
I am going on hiatus.
I am temporarily closed for remodeling.
Because I need to find my pitch.
My awesome, albeit elusive PITCH

& when I do ?
oooooo weeeeee.

Happy Birthday To YOU

! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

:)

I Am My Feelings

Possible

Yep.
Uh huh.
I know I have said this a million times but, today just seems like a real good day to say it again
& again
& again.

I LOVE POSSIBLE.

Oh Yes I Do.
! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
I so do
& what I love even more than the possibility of possible is when possible suddenly, casually appears.

! Ta Da !

When 'it will never, ever happen', happens.
When hopes are realized.
When prayers are answered.
When dreams really do come true.

Yes.
It's possible.
It is very, VERY possible

&
I love it too when the only one who believes in possible is YOU.
When you get up every single day and do what you do because you know.
You KNOW.

You never give up.
You keep on keepin on.
You practice, make perfect.
You continuously believe
&
Just. Like. That.

YaY.

I am Possible.

I AM Here.

:)

I Am My Feelings

Mashed Potatoes

Hungry Heart

Actual Words: 
Got a wife and kids in Baltimore, Jack

What I thought Bruce Springsteen said:
Got a wife and kids and a bad mortgage


Crocodile Rock

Actual Words:
Oh Lawdy mama those Friday nights

What I thought Elton John said:
I'm all alone on Friday nights


Smells Like Teen Spirit

Actual Words:
Here we are now, entertain us

What I thought Nirvana said:
Here we are now, mashed potatoes


Party Up 

Actual words:
Y'all gonna make me lose my mind up in here, up in here

What I thought DMX said:
Y'all gonna make me lose my mind pumping gas, pumping gas


The Way We Were

Actual Words:
Memories light the corners of my mind

What I thought Barbra Streisand said:
Memories like the corners of my mind


Livin' Lovin' Maid

Actual Words:
Livin', lovin', she's just a woman

What I thought Led Zeppelin said:
Live it. Love it. It's in the water.


Everybody's Talkin

Actual Words:
Going where the weather suits my clothes

What I thought Harry Nilsson said:
Going where the weather suits my soul


Scar Tissue

Actual Words:
With the bird I'll share this lonely view

What I thought the Red Hot Chili Peppers said:
The perfect shade is a lonely blue


What a Wonderful World

Actual Words:
The dark sacred night

What I thought Louie Armstrong said:
The dogs say good night


Sometimes I worry about my brain.

:)

I Am My Feelings

Continued C'mons

A Challenge.
A New Year, New Me, we can sooooo do this together Challenge.

YaY

Starting on January 2, 2017 our lives CAN change !! we declared.

Five days per week.
30 pushups
100 sit-ups
To be completed in intervals or at once, it's up to the participant
&
ok
Crunches, leg lifts or squats can be substituted for sit-ups
& yes, you can mix it up however you choose.
Yep.
"wall' pushups are perfectly legit.

hmmmm.

We all sat there and pondered.

hmmmm.

"It will be a piece of CAKE !", I exclaimed.
Easy as can beeeeesy.

Five days out of a seven day week ?
Surely, we can handle that !
& intervals ?
There's 24 hours in a day, my peeps !!
C'MON !!

& so, it began.
If you want in, come on in we decided.
If not, that's entirely up to you and your biz
& what started with the privy who happened to be in my house that night has expanded across the states to the whole family.

The Challenge is ON.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

Uh huh.

The Challenge was ON

& I gotta tell you,
it was not the piece of cake that I so eagerly, one year ago cheered.
Nope.
But, it wasn't horrible, either
& as I sit here counting my ever so diligent, orange highlighter marks for the times I followed through

..... drum roll, please .....

I come up 56 days short of my goal.
rats
& I'm thinking, REALLY ???!!?? but, but, HOW ??!!? WHEN ??? WHY ??

It's called Life, Silly
&
Life + Excuses almost always = Baaaaaaa !!

But, hey.
There's good news here.
You see, I've formed a habit.
I've planted a pestering seed.
I've created a simple routine that's become a portion of my just about every morning.

So, YaY.

YaY

& while I'm at it ...

! ! ! ! !

Here's to 2018
and to it's many, shiny, sparkly promises
and resolutions
and challenges
and I Can Do-s !!

To the falling downs
and picking ups
and starting overs
and over
and over.

Cheers to You,
To Us.
To Trying

& don't you ever, EVER stop trying.

C'mon.

:)

I Am My Feelings

Puzzle Piece

Read by Ken Guidotti


I've found a tiny piece of me
That was lost so long ago
A forgotten, little puzzle piece
And yet, I've missed it so

This puzzle piece found deep within
Locked away for all those years
Has resurfaced, oh so suddenly
Gone too, are all my fears

You are the little puzzle piece
That has gently set me free
Complete and happy
Forever now
My puzzle piece and me

It all made sense when you appeared
I found me when I found you
Like dominoes falling into place
You have become my clue

You are the little puzzle piece
That has gently set me free
Complete and happy
Forever now
My puzzle piece and me

And so, we'll travel through this life
Connected and so content
You've erased the questions surrounding me
The answer, I was sent  

You are the little puzzle piece
That has gently set me free
Complete and happy
Forever now
My puzzle piece and me

:)

 

New

Here we sit on Day 2 of this newbie called 2018
& hmmmm

After the busyness
and parties
and well wishes
and cookies
and go
and do
and every little everything that attaches itself to the holidays,
you feel any different ?

I can tell you one thing,
I'm kinda sorta, flat out exhausted.
It's as if knowing I could hit those brakes and stop, just STOP ! has turned this body of mine into a dawdling sloth.
It's true.
Slow and steady never felt so good

& my sympathies to those who must leave their coziness and make that trek back into the work force.
I'm sorry.
I truly am
& seriously.
Don't you wish you could have another day or three just to catch up on all the sleep you've missed ?

Oh, Energy.
Where have you gone ?

& this.
This eh and boo and ugh.
This waaaa and zzzzzzz and 'but I don't wanna' !!
This is where I must dig down deep and remember the NEW.
Happy New.

Happy New Year.
Happy New Day.
Happy New Each and Every Wonderful Moment I am given on this incredible journey of Life.

er
uh
I know.
You probably want to smack me silly right about now
& no worries.
I get it.
I understand.
I'm just trying to add a little motivation,
a bit of inspiration,
a pinch of enthusiasm,
a ... a ... a ...

awwww geez.
Who am I kidding ?
My invigorating words and I shall return tomorrow
&
I need coffee.
STAT.

:)

I Am My Feelings