It's All Good

I think the universe just might be trying to tell me something
& I, in my slow, steady, somewhat stubborn way am just now starting to realize.

Hellooooooo Jacki ?
Maybe it's time to switch things up !!

hmmmm.

I know it's just a laptop but it's amazing how things happen when and how things happen.
My very loyal friend and lifeline to a whole lotta things decided to go on the fritz recently
& why a couple month old, still under warranty, extremely important to my sanity device would want to do this to me at this precise moment in time is still quite the mystery.

You see, I'm not at all techy.
At. All.

zilch
nada

& those with the knowledge, know-how and extreme patience to help me sort out my occasional technical difficulties ?
Oh, they just happen to be miles and miles away from me.

They are there.
I am here.

Yep.
All of a sudden it's big girl time.
I have to fend for and fix this myself.

eek.

& hold onto your hats people because tada !! I did.
Well, I kind of did.
Husband led me through most of it but, please don't tell anyone as I'm really enjoying the brag.

So.
Anyways.
As I was deeply immersed in my laptop drama ALL I could think about was BLOG.

blogblogblogblogblogblog

Why ??
Because for three solid years now this writing space of mine has been one well oiled, early rising, you can set your watch by me machine.
7 a.m. Central Time Zone baby !
Like clockwork.
That's a whole bunch of days of being locked in and on time, if I do say so myself.
YaY.

But, today.
Not today.
Today will be later
& later might mean afternoon, evening, nighttime or tomorrow.
I'm not sure yet
& truth be told ?
I'm somewhat enjoying this winging it thing.
These Floating Words of mine are taking their time today and are really, truly floating !

weeeeee.

& so, I must thank you, Universe !! for that much deserved knock upside the head.
You've help me see things in a brand spankin, whole new light
& from this day forward, I shall be floating too.
After three set in stone years of 7 a.m CST I'm going to see where my blog and I go on WHATEVER time.

Stay tuned.
This could get interesting.

:)

I Am My Feelings

Or The

If you seek, you will find.
It really is that incredibly easy
& I was reminded in so many wonderful ways this past weekend of just how simple that easy can be

like the walk to the grocery store to pick up a few somethings on a beautiful Saturday
or the genuine Good Morning from that someone walking the dog
or the talking about nothing and everything whilst sitting on a city veranda 
or those enthusiastic young sellers of lemonade on the street corner
or the music in the air on a lovely summer evening
or that song that beckons the heart strings
or the burst of laughter from a gosh that's funny !! story 
or the shared moment of heartfelt love between a mama and her boy
or that bright star in the sky
or those Sunday church bells 
or the slice of pizza that hits the spot
or the
or the
or the

Littles
All those awesome, amazing, teeny, tiny littles that make being here, experiencing THIS so soooooo magical.

If you seek, you will find.
Life's simple, guaranteed promise.

Enjoy.

:)

I Am My Feelings

 

Little Bitty Bit

I saw this beauty as I grabbed mail out of my mailbox yesterday
& WoW
I just had to STOP everything !! and take a pic.

Just look at the detail. 
The every little bitty bit of alllll those grains of sand and stuff.

It's amazing is what it is.

Imagine the time involved.
The cooperation, the coordination

& if a random rain storm with it's gusts of wind or a meanie of a human being happened along and wiped away their masterpiece ?
Those teeny tiny guys would be right back at it, working together to make things right again.

Google tells me the average ant is about one-millionth the size of a person
& although queens can live for decades, males live for only a few weeks and workers, months.

Uh huh.
Yeah.
Let that one sink in for awhile.

Life.
Oh Life.
You are forever handing out simple, priceless lessons.

Here's hoping we one day listen, we one day learn.

:)

I Am My Feelings

Our House

A few of the family and I went over to Dad's yesterday.
My 85 year old father gathered us together to enjoy his deliciously excellent specialty dish, Steak and Gravy with it's mashed potato and corn trimmings included.

Yum Yum Yum
& I doooooo mean YUM

& as we sat there looking through picture books, laughing and reminiscing I couldn't help but think DANG ! I LOVE THIS HOUSE !

This House.
My childhood home.

Yep.
The place where Mom and Dad moved, a few months before Child #3, aka Me, arrived
& ooooooh ! if those walls could talk ! wow weeeee !
a most wonderful story of growing up Halton would be weaved.

There were 8 of us in our house.
Parents.
Four Daughters.
Two Sons.

Four bedrooms.
One bathroom.

Lots of chaos.
Lots of coordinating.
Lots of disagreements and negotiating.
& so soooooo much love.

Happy memories.

Blessed life.

It truly has been a very, very blessed life
& it all came to be because of a solid, unconditional, determined commitment
built on a foundation that has stood strong for a whole bunch of years.

Our House.
My forever home.

Dang.
I love that place.

:)

I Am My Feelings

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Ahhhh.

I feel better now
& btw ..
Those are Grandson's sentences from that time he wanted to write a blog just like Gramma Jacki's.

I know.

How CUTE is THAT ??
&
I KNEW I kept this awesome inspiration for a reason !
Because truth be told, that is exactly how my words were feeling this morning.

scrambled
scrambled eggs.

until I googled and realized it's just that doggone Full Moon here for another go-round.

Doubt.
He brings me doubt.
Every single month.
Every single time.
I feel it, I know it, I allow it in.

But, you know what Full Moon ?
You're incredibly beautiful and all but, please keep your disorderly, nonalignment feelings to yourself.
I just don't want them around me anymore
& fyi ? 

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That's Gramma Jacki's brand new way, brand new day's way of saying stay away Doubt.
Just stay away.

I prefer Trust.

:)

I Am My Feelings

 

Shadowed

Have you ever paid much attention to shadows ?

Yeah
Me neither.
Until recently
& suddenly, I can't seem to get enough.

Welcome to my latest obsession.

I was preparing to walk my trail walk a few weeks ago when I first took notice.
A little boy was there.
He was two, maybe two and a half.
His dad and he were hanging around the picnic tables, enjoying the beautiful summer evening and each other
&
there he was, this little fella, discovering his very own shadow.
Following it around like he had just found a super duper, new best friend, trying to catch up to himself.
Hey ! Wait for me !

& I thought ...
How cool is that ?!?

It wasn't the first time I'd experienced a child chasing a shadow.
With all my years of babysitting and such, I've seen the wonder quite a few times.
But apparently, somewhere down the line, I'd forgotten the joy.
I needed that simple reminder
& now that I've received it ... ?

watch out

Beautiful shadows are everywhere.

EVERY. WHERE.

& yes,
I have become intrigued and entranced
& completely obsessed.

I sooooo wish adults could perceive like a child perceives
& not just once in awhile, all the time.
Innocent eyes, wide open
& oh ! to live in that slow motion world of stop, look, ponder.
Giddily following your very own shadow around forever.

I guess that's the point of the gentle reminders.
It's that little knock upside the head.
Pay attention to amazing !

NOTICE

& so,
I will, I am, I do
& yep, Little Kids ... ! ... I absolutely agree

!! weeeeeeeee !!

:)

I Am My Feelings

Rilke

" ... and for the rest, let life happen to you. Believe me, life is right, in any case."

I wish I knew exactly what it is about those simple words.
As if my soul has been waiting, as if written for me.

boom
There they be.

A gentle nudge that stirs something within
& how they stumbled into my life is pretty fantastic too.

A comment to a status.
A person taking the time to relate, to care.
A new friend.
An understanding.

These words come from Rainer Maria Rilke and can be found in the book 'Letters To A Young Poet'.
Written long before you or I were sitting on this planet, they say what I feel and feel what I say.

The struggles.
The hope.
The heartache and faith.

I know I'm a sucker for inspiration but, this guy has uncovered a hidden something in me FOR SURE
& I just can't stop thinking, I'd have never found them on my own.
They found me
& little did she know when she asked if I'd like to borrow her book, she was placed on my path for reasons beyond my comprehension.
Talk about perfect timing !

WoW

The point I am trying to make on this beautiful, new today ?
If something inside of you whispers,
coaxes,
suggests to do ? 
Do.

For yourself.
For another.
Just Do.

That voice, those people are given to you for a reason.
So if you hear it, if you feel it.

Do.

 " ... and for the rest, let life happen to you. Believe me, life is right, in any case."

I'm glad you followed what you were being told, Rainer Maria Rilke.
You too, Hilary.

:)

I Am My Feelings