My Two Yesterdays

By my calculations, it doesn't happen all that much but, then again, Math has never been my strong point
& without going into the lovely details of it all, let's just say I stepped into a downward spiral.
I'm not even sure how it happened but, once in, I found it hard to get out
& sure, I can blame it on not feeling 100% but, man oh man, as those days progressed, my mood in general decided to take a nosedive too.

Two yesterdays.
I lost two whole yesterdays, thank you very much.

I was mad and achy and pissy and unmotivated
& HUMPH
Just Humph.

Dad called.
Kids called.
Siblings sent texts
& I pretended all was well, just a bit under the weather.
But, truth be told ?
If there was a way to catapult myself off this planet, I just might have tried.
Why not ??
I could disappear into oblivion and nobody would even notice I was gone.

oh yeah.
It was that bad

& it was bound to happen.
I spend so much of my time searching for the bright side I forget that life sometimes enjoys handing out those knuckle sandwiches.
I suppose I was due for that knock down reminder.

Yes.
Yes indeedy do.
Sometimes life does suck.
Big Time
& YES, I know.
I know.
I know.
There are a whole bunch of people in this world with worse case scenarios.
I know.
But, I didn't care.
My two yesterdays were all about me.
Feel sorry for ME
& that I did, very much so.

But, today is today
& come this today, I'm feeling a bit brighter.
I am also feeling a need to share.

Nope.
It's not always pretty out there.
But, for every dark day there are a zillion light ones right behind it.
So, don't stop.
Keep doing and doing and doing and doing
& when you think you may just be at the end of your rope ?
Think again.
When you're convinced no one gives a rip about you, remember there is a someone who surely does.
When you're certain you don't have a clue what to do or where to go next ?
You do
& when you are positive you have hit rock bottom.
Welp.
Maybe you have.
Maybe you haven't.
Either way, GET UP.
Shake it off and go back to your square one.
Begin again.
Start over.
Baby step it if you must but, remind yourself, you MUST.

Self pity, feeling sorry for yourself, woe woe woe is meeeeeeee ...! gets you absolutely nowhere.
I know, I've just wasted two of my yesterdays wallowing in that mucky yuck.
But today.... ?
TODAY is a brand new beginning, my friends
& today holds positives, encouragement and smiles.

It's an up, down, happy, sad, zig zaggity, crazy roller coaster ride, is what it is
& it's called Life.
But, I'm here
& You're here.
We. Are. Here.
So, YaY

Let's Keep Doing.

:)

I Am My Feelings