Deactivated

Have you ever had a thought just tap, tap, tap at your brain ?

Continual.
Constant.
There.
Hunkered in the shadows, with it's 'I'm not leaving until we address this issue' humph.

Welp.
That was me with my very dear pal, Facebook.

Until yesterday.

Because yesterday, I addressed that little something
& I followed what my inner voice has been suggesting all along.

I deactivated.
I stepped away.
I stopped.

Are you SURE you want to do this ?? Facebook asked once, twice, again, as it rattled off the people I might be upsetting with my departure.
Are ? You ? SURE ???

Yes, friends.
I am sure.

Why ?
Because my mind keeps taking me back.

It was 2009 and I was on my "I'm 50 !!" Colorado birthday trip, provided by my way too generous children.
Sisters, niece and I were having a hiking, picnicking type of glorious day when someone pondered ...
"Are you on Facebook yet ? You should be on Facebook!"

& so, I did, I was, I liked
& it truly has been a wonderful journey !

The reunions with my long lost peeps.
The sharing of moments and food and songs and selfies and puppies and clouds and trees and stuff.
The checking in-s.
The Happy Birthdays.
Happy Anniversaries.
Happy ! Happy ! :) !
The wish you were here having fun with us too.
The... the ....

ahhhh Facebook.
We have definitely come a long way, baby
& I will forever be thankful to YOU.

You brought me out of my shell, is what you did.
My 'I'll Just Keep These Poems and Stories Tucked Safely Away In This Drawer Forever' fear.
I was scared and timid and I would not allow anyone to enter this very, VERY private part of me
& although it was a slow and I do mean S L O W, extremely tedious and yes ! rather torturous process, I did it.
We did it.

I'm not afraid anymore, Facebook.

YaY

So WHY deactivate, you ask ?

Because my inner voice is quite insistent
& it's telling me to go back.
Go back to that Colorado day before.
Go back to old school.
Go back to quiet 
& shhhhh

Just shhhhh

No worries, my devoted "book" buddies
& please know, it's nothing personal !
I've left you but, my blog words shall remain via the unrelenting loyalty of Brother, Sister, Friends and Husband and I truly hope you continue to read, follow.
My profile picture and I just have to go elsewhere for now,
For awhile.

Forever ?

hmmmm.

I'll keep you posted.
I promise.

:)

I Am My Feelings