Every Card

There is a song that pops up quite often on my daily walks
& it hits me like a ton of bricks every time I listen.
It's the garden scene from the 1970 rock opera, 'Jesus Christ Superstar'
& if you've never heard, I highly recommend.

Gethsemane (I Only Want To Say)

I love every single line of those beautiful lyrics. 

"God thy will is hard but You hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison
Nail me to your cross and break me ... "

Those are my favorite words.
Ever.
I've repeated them a zillion times, especially on my darkest days.
They are my knock upside the head, Jesus reminder.

Those words cue me into the fact that no matter what
NO. MATTER.WHAT.
I go through in life
Jesus has been there, He's done that
& He's most definitely "got" whatever "this" I happen to be facing.

He is with me through the good times
& I absolutely know He is with me on those not so goods too.
Every heartache, every inconceivable happening, every 'why me?' or 'what now?' moment.
Jesus is there.

I trust.
He embraces.
My every doubt is erased because of Him.

"I will drink your cup of poison"

He did.
He so did
& I could seriously wad up in a ball and cry just thinking about His incredible selflessness.

Thank you my Jesus, my very best friend.
This heart of mine is yours.

Forever.
Yours.

:)

I Am My Feelings